Wednesday, December 24, 2003

"My God MY God why have you forsaken me"

Each lent I pondered the words of Christ, "Why have you forsaken me?" Even as a child I could not imagine Christ saying this and I took it to mean something entirely different. I could not wrap my brain around Christ being so vulnerable. I had meditated on this and I wanted understanding.

I had an opportunity to finally understand...

After I awoke from my c-section/hernia surgery after Julia was born, I was screaming. I had not had that reaction before, but I was screaming help help, and I shouted out "my God my God why have you forsaken me" (how embarrassing) well in an instant a priest from our parish, fr. Jerry, was right there in my face, the nurses were shouting "get out of here, you can't be in here" and I thanked him, he kind of blessed me as they were pushing him away. And also at that moment I heard the surgeon tell a nurse to put something in my IV and I felt better.
Anyway, when I was back in my room I apologized to God for having such doubt but it struck me that I was blessed to finally understand what Christ went through. Of course my ordeal was a matter of minutes, His of course was hours. Believe me I am not comparing myself to Christ. anywho... Though I was shouting in out in pain, I had not lost my love of God in that moment, I was just human and I remember thinking, no more, I can't take any more, enough is enough. HELP. God did answer my prayers when he had Fr. Jerry show up, His perfect representative.
Later I saw Fr. Jerry in confession and I apologized for the ugly treatment from the hospital staff, and he said they do that all the time. He was so joyful and said it did not offend him a bit, he was used to that sort of treatment. Made me sad though. So much they give up and yet they are mistreated. Blessed are those who are persecuted for Holiness sake. 
Each time I hear that verse, I remember to pray for priests.

Saturday, December 20, 2003

New Baby

This afternoon Judy delivered a beautiful healthy baby girl (only a little over 4 lbs). She is now undergoing surgery for the hernia that has been causing her so much discomfort and severe pain. Please pray for Julia and Mommy Judy! Please thank all the CM's for their gift of prayer for my baby girl and her baby girl. It fills my heart with joy knowing you are all cheering on my Judy! Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

God loves you all! Love, Hugs, Kisses and God's Blessings, Mom Sylvia xxx,ooo

Saturday, November 22, 2003

Mary's cough

Mary Catherine was up last night with what I would call a dry cough ... at first ... And then she threw up, from the irritation.
My kids were still up ... a Friday night, and they all pitched in. The 14 year old (Elizabeth) changed the sheets, the 17 year old (Shiela) bathed Mary, and the 12 year old (Warren) picked up all her toys and washed the ones that got spewed on.
Then at 1am she woke up with the croup. Warren was still up playing games. He came and lifted Mary for me and we went out on the porch and rocked her for about 20 minutes in the cool night air. IT WORKED! She slept threw it all. And didn't wake up the whole night! She got up about 9:30am. That cool night air really works for the croup. It was in the upper 40's. She was wrapped in a quilt and we wore jackets. It was so nice to be out of my bedroom, and visiting with Warren, nice kid.
I've been having a lot of contractions and they are very painful. I don't want to complain because I know there are bigger fish to fry out there. You all have such strength. Please say a prayer or two for me. They are not productive, of course, but they are painful. The hernia is protruding a lot now and the gastritis has really flared up. I haven't left my bedroom for very long at a time. I lay there crying, with a heating pad. I don't think I'm going to make it to mass tomorrow. That really bothers me. I know God understands. But it just feels like the last straw. You know?
Anyway... sorry to whine. Please say a Hail Mary for me, that I can handle this better.

Wednesday, November 5, 2003

Houdini, or as we call her Mary Catherine...

Houdini is at it again. Magic God give me strength. Somehow she managed to widdle out of that diaper and bring it to me!!!Crawling Baby Diaper pins and all!!
What a DAY! First I'm on the phone with the Chemistry teacher, who was returning my phone call, and MaryCatherine brings me a dime ... IN HER MOUTH ... Afraid Then I'm on the phone Chattywith Daddy and I hear the kitchen sink, I turn around and she's standing on the counter!!! No No No
You don't want to know the rest... Whoa
She is in a very 'tight' diaper now. Sickened Tried to pin it so it couldn't slip past the family thighs ... Hysterical ... we shall see.
Please Lord no poop in her bed. Prayer I put her down for a 'nap' ... what a joke. But at least she is confined to a safe place for a couple hours. And on occasion she has given in to her sleepy eyesYawn and fallen fast asleep. Sleepy
So how is your day going?Thoughts?

Thursday, January 2, 2003