Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Reflection on hospital stay... snow miracle
It's after midnight and I've had some time to reflect on my last hospital stay. I had the same abdominal pain & rick took me to the ER. The pain was fierce and barely manageable. I prayed and cried out at one point when I was in the hospital bed and they could not get an IV going to administer pain meds, "Jesus please show me a sign you hear me." Immediately I felt ashamed and embarrassed that I had asked for a sign when I've been blessed with so many. So I prayed, "Sweet Jesus, I know you are here, I need no sign. Mother Mary pray for me. St. Jude, pray for me." Later I was admitted to a room. I was in less pain thanks to good pain meds in the IV they finally got going. I lay in bed drifting off to sleep and thinking about how I pleaded for a sign from God, and again I asked to be forgiven. I fell asleep and was woken up to be taken for an xray. "Did you see the snow?" The young hospital worker who had to wheel me to radiation took me by a window so I could see the large snow falling softly about the roof of the hospital. I hoped Julia and Mary could see the snow too... since we'd been praying nightly for the snow to fall. It stopped after 10 minutes, but it was lovely. It didn't occur to me then or even in the hospital that the snow was perhaps Gods clear sign to me that He was and always is hearing my prayers... my pleas. (Look back at 12/29/2006) ... It only dawned on me once I came home and Mary came running to me shouting "Mommy, Mommy did you see the snow?" It was then I was struck by our own words that God gives us what we need when we need it. Jesus I trust in You.